Tuesday, December 22, 2009

You can call me gullible, naive, or whatever you want. I know who I am so that doesn't bother me. However, as I get older, it is getting harder and harder for me to wholeheartedly trust people OR genuinely LIKE people. I'm genuine, blunt, honest and sometimes I can get under your skin with it but YOU WILL know what I think about you, truthfully. If I don't like you I won't interact with you. Why can't everyone be like this? Why does everyone have a hidden agenda? Why is it always about what you can do for them or how they can gain something from you for relationships (whatever kind) to be of any kind of substance? How come it seems EVERYONE has multiple personalities and you never really know them....

I'm just really finding it hard to trust people nowadays...or give people the benefit of the doubt. I don't like to keep people at an arms distance or censor myself with them as a result of their underhanded ways. I just want to be me BUT that's difficult when your friends aren't your friends, the person you love doesn't love you, someone is working full time, behind your back to sabotage you....ugh!!! It's really becoming a chore to notice the good in people before, first, noticing their faults. It's really becoming hard to value "FRIENDSHIPS" because they aren't that at all.

But one thing mommy taught me is that "when someone shows you who they really are, take that for exactly what it is, who they are" I can say that has allowed me to just move on in alot of instances. It bothers some, because they can't, for the life of them understand how I seemed so unphased and really don't care about certain things. Truth is I don't. So what, a friendship dissolves, they'll be others, so what you lose a job you're still LIVING. I always think of the more important things in life. Well, the things that are important to me anyway. I'm happy, healthy, accepted and loved by my family and have TWO very loyal, genuine, loving best friends. I've been blessed with education....none of those are things that can be taken away.
Therefore, I live for those things...not people, friends, a relationship, acceptance from everyone else, those that @ the end of the day don't matter.

I had to write this blog as a way of purging so to speak because PEOPLE can drive you crazy or @ least THINK they are. If you know me and are reading this....IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME, STAY YOUR DISTANCE. I'VE NEVER BEEN ONE TO THRIVE OFF OF FRIENDSHIP & CAN GIVE A SH!T IF YOU LIKE ME!!! I've been known to trust up front, not taking it away until I have a reason to but to hell with that....

If you like my blog then feel free to comment, follow and make sure I check yours out too. If you know me or follow me on twitter then feel free to comment on there or speak when you see me. I'm a really nice person unless given a reason to showcase another attitude...BUT FOR THE SAKE OF TIME & ENERGY KEEP YOUR SH!T MOVING IF YOUR MOTIVES & THOUGHTS AREN'T POSITIVE!!!!!

4 comments:

sunshinestar110 said...

I feel u on this one! My friendships are far and in between because i feel i can't trust to many ppl as time moves on. One thing i will u is as time passes on you realize that all of this self battling questions will benefit u in the future...trust me it why my friend count is very low! but they are true friends in life.

Lipglass and Handbags said...

Yess!!! It's all about the quality NOT the quantity!!! People get on my nerves girl!!

mami.monroe said...

love this post . my so called bestfriend of 5 years could never seem to see where da fck i was cominq from ; UNTIL it happened to her. it tauqht me to stay to myself & ive been doinq fine !

khaki said...

*co-sign*