Throwbaaaack!!!!

Although a little before my time I am a HUGE fan of the New Jack Swing era of music and this is a fave!!

ONE WEEK 'TIL MY 24TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Do you love your occupation?!!?

I was posed the question last night of what is my dream job and am I doing it.  Well, to answer the question, if I could create my dream job OR stop procrastinating in my creation of it, I would own a personal shopping and image consulting mini empire!  That is a far far cry from the Bachelor of Science in Criminal Justice I earned at the University of Maryland Eastern Shore, but as you grow you learn things including things about yourself.  Additionally, I have always wanted to run a nonprofit organization dedicated to the steady progression of young girls, preferable minority girls.  I have started the VERY basic ground work on these projects, but procrastination has hindered my own progression.  So disappointed in myself!!  Not to mention that everyday we wakeup not loving the life we live by living the life we'd love is a waste!!  The world wants what each of us has to give and inner passions are for a divine reason!  Are you living your dream?  What changes could you make to live the life you love and contribute to the world by way of your dreams and deepest passions?  I want anyone who reads this to take a second to think about the current quality of the life you live as it relates to your personal satisfaction and it's contribution to your innermost passions!! Are you on fire for your current endeavors and current occupation!?!? If not refocus and do what makes you happy...God has already figured out the rest!

Favorite CHRISTmas songs...#1

In the spirit of Christmas, I've decided to post my top 7 favorite Christmas songs in the week leading up to the holiday!!! A huge Destiny Child, Beyonce fan, this is definitely one of them!!!

Home alone blabbin...

My family is in Florida for a week and with no boyfriend and a slew of friends in new relationships, I'm taking in some me time! Not a bad idea, i've been looking forward to having this kind of time to myself for awhile now. At least this way I don't have the expense of a hotel. I'm enjoying me....my space, interests, and personal "talks" with self. (NO i'm not crazy!!!!) but we all know that solitude can & will afford us the kind of clarity and peace of mind on things that other people, constant activity, and interference can't.

*Sigh* Drake's "Find Your Love" just came on...I love this song, his cd...for some reason his music reminds me of my college days, especially this song!! *smile* as I look back on memories of my journey throught that last love of mine. Everyone said there'd be a day I looked back on it and smile. I guess they were right *smile*! ANYWAYS...

This is the first time that I am the lone single chik in my circle and I wonder what that means. What is this new phase of my journey? What is God up to in me? I feel changes, maturity taking place almost daily...and maybe thats just it. Sometimes I miss the him of my most recent past, even the bad times. I miss his friendship more than any other i've said farewell to within the recent past but since that goodbye i've experienced great growth on a personal level. I'm better without my crutch (him) and I'm at a place where I can say I hope the same could be said of him.

NONETHELESS i'm still enjoying life...clubs with my girls, new restaurants every week, flirting with guys, having my pick (& most times the lack thereof) of the mens, making and enjoying $$$$$, and being me without the constant criticism of another disguised as love.

LOL!! Funny, how we always work OT to wonder whats really good with us when all the things I just named are likely precisely the reason why I am single right now. Most of my girlfriends experienced those things in college, but I didn't. I was bunned up under my boyfriend, fighting/arguing with him at a time when life was supposed to be carefree and fun!

I can dig that...I'm enjoying the hell outta it!! My college education ended a little over a year ago but we never stop learning about life. That's the beauty of this thing, this blessing!! I'm so happy and in control for the first time I own my emotions, reactions, actions, and choices. YAY me!!!

BTW, I haven't been posting often but i'm certainly making my way on the comments circuit...so I see yall, keep bloggin' so I can comment!!!

"May the best of your todays

be the worst of your tomorrows"

*Shaun JayZ Carter*

Strive to make your today better than your yesterday even if that means choosing to be in a better mood today than you were yesterday. Whatever we focus on in our lives WILL flourish!! So, don't give energy to controversy, negativity and ill-intentions.

Smile,
do something different,
be thankful for what IS,
realize it can always be worst,

and be thankful to be alive BECAUSE someone,

somewhere did not wake up this morning with what you have or what you have to offer the world if they awakened at all!!!!!!!

You ARE for a very SPECIFIC reason,

trod on the road to realizing it happily!!!!

LOST ONE**

As we progress through life, we encounter many different kinds of personalities. We befriend some of them, fall in love with some but one thing is certain not all of them will last, all aren't meant to. That is the aspect that we have trouble dealing with the most as people. We seek acceptance, companionship, affection and love so when someone we want around no longer wants us around we often find it difficult to cope with that reality. Although, life does eventually move on...and this could be true of a relationship with a family member, friend or "friend", and mate. Even "life long" friends can be people that existed only in your past, and it is perfectly fine and very normal to be sad, at first, but of more importance to understand the role he/she played in your life, acknowledge and appreciate the good you two shared and DECIDE that relationship is over and moving on is vital to YOUR development, YOUR health, and YOUR happiness. It doesn't make you a bad person, doesn't mean you never cared for them, it means you understand that your happiness is up to you and that NOTHING should negatively impact that. People often tell me I am "heartless", insensitive because I approach relationships and i'll be honest I approach most friendships with this state of mind...it's not that I am never or never was your friend, it's because I understand that there will be other relationships and that when ANY door closes it's working for the eventual good and means another is not too far from opening. Don't get me wrong there are friendships/relationships worth fighting for, worth putting work into...but some have just run their course and you'll know those when you come across them.

LESSON: DO NOT pour in unnecessary energy or stress over situations, people, things you CANNOT and will NOT ever be able to change. Choose to be happy, smiling, at peace, secure, and sure of your surroundings and associates. Anything else WILL compromise all of that.

I can say that i've realized this as I examined the relationships & "friend"/friendships i've had but nothing or noone has kept me from being happy, living the life I want to live and pursuing the things I want to pursue...that means everything that ended and everyone that is no longer IS NOT for a reason!!!!

Last night....

started off a little loopy but the night was wonderful. The boo & I went to see Monica in concert in B-More and it took forever for her to get there but anywho, she did!! The concert was hott!! I actually like to going to concerts in Baltimore more because their venues are smaller and you're likely to get a GREAT seat. Our seats were center stage and even though we were on the 11th row, it was like we were in row 5!!! I was sooo pressed because she doesn't have song I don't like and all her songs have been a favorite of mine at one point or another. We had fun, sipped some cocktails, sang, and took some pics. LOL, Monica is so real and so "hood" in a good way!! I love that about her, I love that she's never put on the "better than" act and stay true to herself all these years....commendable. I HAD A BLAST**

OKAY SO I'M PRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALL I WANTED FOR CHRISTMAS WAS A PINK LAPTOP AND I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE PINK DELL INSPIRON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WAS SO DUE FOR A LAPTOP, MORESO AFTER GIVING MINE AWAY BUT NOW I HAVE ONE AND IT'S PINK, THE COLOR OF EVERYTHING WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!

BY THE WAY I'M TYPING THIS ON MY NEW LAPTOP!!!! YEA BUDDY!!!!!!

UGH!!!

OMG I hate the winter but it gets me hype for the spring and summer!! I'm definitely breakin out the big guns lol for the upcoming warm seasons!! See, the secret is to work you ass out til you are dog tired in the winter to get that bikini/mini dress body for the spring and winter! I can't wait!!! I'm so hype, I might even have my drop top this year, especially if all works out here on the job but i'm claiming that situation!!!

I got dreams and plans for days!!! There isn't a blueprint out that illustrates this dolls stunt appeal*** I'm sorry blogfamily...I'm real high on life right now but hopefully some of these dry, smile-less people will catch contact!!!!!!

I HAVE ARRIVED BIOTCHES....LOL, HOW U DOIN???

(WENDY WILLIAM VOICE OF COURSE)

Tis the Season to be JOLLY!!!

I love this time of the year!!! Its family/loved one gathering time, the smell of mint & pine are in the air, rich dark colors and lights are abound!!!! Not to mention my 22nd birthday is next Monday the 7th!!!!! Anywho, how did everyone's Thanksgiving go? Mine was wonderful, but more quiet than normal this year. I did go see one of my Alma Mater's play in DC's Turkey Bowl though (yea imma proud Ballou Knight). I shopped this weekend and finally saw Precious (fought back tears the whole time).

What are everyone's holiday plans?? Traveling? Did you start shopping yet? Be Merry blogfamily and savor the moments!!!!

OH everybody in the DC area should check out the ICE @ Gaylord National this holiday season. I had so much fun with my mom and sister when we went. Be sure to bundle up though! To find out more about this event GOOGLE Christmas on the Potomac.

Anywho, whats good for the holidays??!?!?!? LET ME IN!!!

Girls Just Wanna Have FUN**

I had a crazy amount of fun lastnight with my girlies. It was my bff's 22nd birthday (YaY!!) we went to The Melting Pot to celebrate. It was the perfect night to go because it was their monthly Girls Night Out night and OMG!!!! It was the best dining out experience i've had. For those that don't know, The Melting Pot is a Fondue Restaurant where fondues are made at your table and you are given "dippers" (food to dip in the fondue & eat). They had a separate Girls Night Out menu which included a four course meal. It was sooo good. The first course was a cheese fondue with assorted dippers that included apples, vegetables, bread, nacho chips. The second course was the salad. 3rd was the entree THAT YOU COOK YOURSELF!!! I'll admit I was the only one skeptical about us cooking it ourselves BUT everything is preseasoned and marinated & the server gives you instructions to guide you through the cooking.
It sounds like alot of work but it isn't...IT'S FUN!!! The food was so good, the entree was steak, chicken breast, shrimp, pasta, with vegetables. ALL OF IT IS COOKED BY YOU!!!

BUT OMG THE LAST COURSE was the BEST...the dessert comes with a chocolate fondue that you choose with an assortment of dippers: pound cake, cheesecake, strawberries, bananas, brownies, marshmellows. We chose the Flaming Turtle Chocolate Fondue that came with walnuts in regular chocolate fondue that was flambeed @ our table. It was soo good!!! I recommend this restaurant as a nice date restaurant!!!! I don't have pics for blogger but the night was amazing!!

My best friend LOVED her gifts!! I got her a Betsey Johnson bag & Cosmetic Bag, 3 Vicky Secrets Lipglosses, Vicky's perfume giftpack with all the Vicky's perfumes, two bottles of Rose` Champagne (MOET), a birthday cake and dinner was on me!!!!

While we ALL had a good time last night, let this post remind you to be selfless and try to take yourself out of the equation sometimes. You'll be surprised @ how going out of your way to make someone else happy can make you feel*** Checkout The Melting Pot too!!!!

BEST DARN YEAR PERIOD!!!!!!

The year is ending and that saddens me, makes me wanna cry I have fallen deeply in love with '09 and like any breakup its hard knowing I'll soon have to say goodbye. The saying goes though, that everything, even those good things, will have to come to an end...but I'm standing firm, knowing that what my pastor says is the truth that 9 is the breakthrough and just a glance of things to come @ 10, new beginnings and a fresh start line. That means that 2010 will be even better so YAY!!! I can't believe that October is just about here already....The year will end with just as much excitement and GREAT things going on that it progressed with. I cannot complain or be sad about ANYthing this year has brought me even though there is hardly anything to be down about:

2009 Bought me:

Barack Obama in the White House & Inauguration Celebrations

My Bachelors Degree

Family Vacation

A WONDERFUL rekindled "friendship" and unexpected bond with a great male friend

SASHA FIERCE @ Madison Square Garden, sweet memories

in Times Square

Great New Friendships, Old Friendships got better

Memorable times in Downtown Orlando, Florida

A WONDERFUL new job $$$$$>$$$$$

Family cookouts, photoshoots, trips, feasts

UNEXPECTED romance beyond my imagination

FAB NEW HAIR!!!!!!

The rest of 2009 will be:

Philly with the boo and his besty

JayZ & Wale in Bmore

Aggie Chaos @ North Carolina A & T

Thanksgiving in Florida (Can you say Luxury @ BEST,well maybe lol)

A GIRLS GONE SASSY NIGHT FOR THE 22nd BDAY!!!

Radio City Music Hall & the CHRISTMAS SPECTACULAR, SHOPPING!!!!!

SO HOW SHOULD I BRING IN 2010.....Hmmmm?!?!

I THANK GOD FOR MY BLESSED LIFE, THE BLESSINGS HE HAS BESTOWED UPON ME AND FOR THOSE THAT I HAVE YET TO REALIZE, LIFE IS WHAT WE MAKE IT & MINE IS PRETTY DARN GRAND IF I SHALL SAY SO MYSELF!!!!!