A GREAT love lost...goodbye 2009*

This New Years Eve is a bittersweet one filled with smiles and invisible tears, as my heart grows more and more reluctant to open up to the new unknown, 2010. The last 364 days have been a complete whirlwind of happy times, better times, fun times and adventurous times!! In short, 2009 was the year that I actually had a real life love affair with. Now it's time to say goodbye and like the rest of them, this love affair too, is coming to an end, never to return again...BUT i'm not sad about this one....this decade has made it's impact. I'm eternally grateful for what the last 10years has bought me, taught me and steered me from. I was a girl of 12years going into year 2000, i'm a woman now going into 2010 with independence, self assurance, worldly knowledge, and Bachelors degree in tow. I SMILE about that because with all the last 10years has bought me, it has still ONLY introduced me to the journey that will reveal my destiny. Sent me off with a bang, 2009 was the truth!!! The seventh grader that I started the decade as had no idea what would lay ahead....so much has occured:

1. United States entered 2 wars
2. Tuesday September 11, 2001 terrorist attacks
3. I lost numerous friends and cousins to violence, 3 grandparents to ailments, and motherhood ended before it started
4. Thursday June 2, 2005 I became a high school graduate
5. August 2005 I began college....University of Maryland Eastern Shore
6. February 2006 I met the love of my life
7. April 2007 I lost my beloved Grandmother Edna to Alzheimers & Breast Cancer
8. June 2007 experienced the most horrible breakup ever for me anyway
9. October 2007 I lost my Grandfather John Thomas Bennett
10. December 2007 I was initiated into the Alpha Phi Sigma Criminal Justice Honor Society
11. March 2008 My other grandfather William Crawford passed of kidney failure
12. November 2008 I was finally eligible to vote in my first Presidential Election and had the option to vote for a black man
13. December 2008 I turned 21...a woman at last
14. January 2009 President-Elect Barack Obama was inaugurated as the first African American President of the United States of America and I was there in the FREEZING COLD
15. April 2009 I finally got to visit the Motown Hitsville studios in Detroit Michigan
16. MAY 2009 I BECAME A COLLEGE GRADUATE WHEN I ACCEPTED MY B.S DEGREE IN CRIMINAL JUSTICE
17. June 2009 my first concert @ Madison Square Garden....so pressed*** THE KING OF POP/ENTERTAINMENT MICHAEL JACKSON DIES...never WANTED to see the day!!!
18. July-August 2009 DISNEY WORLD!!! BEST vacay ever!!!
19. August 2009-I started my first job out of college and couldn't be HAPPIER!!!
20. December 2009-I had the best birthday party i'd ever been too....22 BABY!!!!
21. December 2009-I'm STILL in and experiencing LOVE***

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!! MAY THE NEXT 10 YEARS BE EVEN BETTER!!

Planning BIG**

OMG!!!! I'm a real fiend for the color pink. I like for everything I buy to represent me and well in my room everything is PINK* I love Barbie too even though there is a real shortage of BLACK BARBIE merchandise on the market. Anywho, I was thinking I wonder if there is a barbie themed hotel room anywhere and so I googled it....I'll be damned if one didn't pop up!!!! The Palms Hotel & Casino in Vegas has a Barbie Suite in their fantasy tower!!!! Sooo, while it will likely not be when I go to Vegas this time, I will certainly be planning a stay in the Barbie suite...maybe my 25th birthday when I wild the hell out in various cities. Idk though, I may just go ahead and stay there for a night or two when I go in March* Checkout the pics, cute right????

Kindness inspires kindness....

It being Christmas inspired me to write this post. The other night after partying, my girls and I headed to IHOP. When we got there, there was a man asking people if he could wash their windows in exchange for a few dollars to buy some coffee and maybe something to eat. Of course he asked my friends and I and we all turned him down as we headed into the warm restaurant to order our food without a care in the world. I will be honest and say that I told the man "I am getting ready to eat with the money that I have."

He answered with "Ok, thank you and have a goodnight." I turned to continue walking inside and in that instant conviction fell on my heart. I DID have it to give to that man and here I was about to leave him out in the cold, Christmas week when all he wanted was warmth and something to put in his stomach. I couldn't live with the answer I gave him so I made sure to turn around and correct the situation by giving him a few dollars, apologizing and telling him to have a Merry Christmas and a goodnight.

As I am inside having great conversation, being warmed by my hot chocolate and filling my belly my meal of sirloin tips, hash browns and pancakes, my mind began to wonder and feel further remorse for the way I initially handled the situation with the man outside. The man came back in to thank me again and tell me he'd washed my windows anyway. I thanked him.

I tell that story to reiterate the title of this post that kindness inspires kindness. Imagine what the world would be like if we all checked ourselves and spent our days trying to be a blessing to others as opposed to judging, condemning, and avoiding those that seem to just be wondering through life.

EVERYONE has a story!!!!!!!!! NOONE says I want to grow up and be addicted to drugs, homeless, abused, live a life a crime, etc. AND it is not for us to judge those fighting such struggles in their lives.....WITH THAT,
decide to be a blessing to someone else by coming out of yourself every now and then and commit a random act of kindness. It doesn't have to be monetary but it could be an encouraging word, a warm smile, honesty, a hug.....HAPPY HOLIDAYS BLOGGERS!!!!! LOVE YOU!!!

OKAY SO I'M PRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ALL I WANTED FOR CHRISTMAS WAS A PINK LAPTOP AND I GOT IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE PINK DELL INSPIRON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WAS SO DUE FOR A LAPTOP, MORESO AFTER GIVING MINE AWAY BUT NOW I HAVE ONE AND IT'S PINK, THE COLOR OF EVERYTHING WONDERFUL!!!!!!!!!!!

BY THE WAY I'M TYPING THIS ON MY NEW LAPTOP!!!! YEA BUDDY!!!!!!

WHAT IF....

just one or all of the 5 senses you were born with were suddenly taken away from you? Say, you suddenly couldn't feel the embrace of the love of your life or touch, caress them much like you had before. How about not being able to hear your favorite songs, the ones you often sing along to, even though you remember what they sound like...It's the holidays, so what if all of a sudden on Christmas you chew and swallow mama's honey ham, yams, mac & cheese, and famous collard greens but you could no longer taste the flavors you grew to love as a youngin' and expect to indulge in during the holidays? Once more what if you couldn't smell when that fine specimen of a man walked through, wearing Polo's Blue cologne (one of my faves), or look in the mirror and see yourself age (something we all take for granted)?????

We take life's little things for granted, things like the 5 senses. I thought I'd see what you all thought of this because two years ago, I was confronted with these questions. What would I do if it happened to me? How would I cope? How would life change?

You can't miss what you haven't had, but to be born with your senses and become acustomed to treading through life with them and have them taken has to be a scary ordeal....at least I imagine it could be, I could be wrong.

In 2007, I had an earache that I assumed would just go away partly because of my ignorance to ear aches and reluctance to think it was anything of any significance wrong with my ear. However, as the days went by, the pain got worse and worse and after about a week the whole right side of my head began to ache with intensity, and my hearing was almost non-existent on that side. I would talk louder than needed because I couldn't hear myself the way I was used too...It'd effect me when I turned my head, talked, ate, slept or attempted, pretty much whatever I tried to do!! So, with my parents out of state I said "i'm not going to the hospital, imma ask the pharmacy what to do." I did that and THANK GOD there was a nurse there who looked @ my ear and directed me to go straight to the Emergency room. I went, and then the doctor who saw me told me I had a severe case of swimmers ear and that my ear had started closing as a result of being swollen. He gave me an antibiotic and sent me on my way. IT WAS A SCARY SITUATION!!!!

I was thankful it was just an ear infection that could be fixed with antibiotic BUT up until that point I was terrified that something else was going on and I was slowly losing my hearing...remember, I couldn't hear anything on that side. I now make sure to be thankful for EVERYTHING even just waking up in the morning and the abilities to taste, hear, smell, touch and see.

Really though, if you thought or knew you were losing one of your 5 senses, how would react, cope, move on????

The CrackBerry blues***

OMG, I swore I would not become a CrackBerry addict but clearly I have eaten those words. Yesterday, there was a outage of blackberry internet services and I lie to you not, I couldn't function. I don't know if it was having a cell phone that I could only text and use for phone calls (how 90s) or if it was because I couldn't twitter, facebook, instant message, bbm, or download new Blackberry Apps!!!!!!!!! LMAO for some reason I was feenin' to tweet and couldn't for the life of me understand why noone was returning my bbm messages....So yes, the harshness of my reality has been fully realized!!!!

Hello. My name is Tora and I'm a CrackBerry addict (standing up shamefully, headdown, side eye*)

LOL, was anyone else's Black/CrackBerry out yesterday or lastnight....GOD bless you and were you as traumatized as I was....really tho, I need help, clearly!!!

BAD GIRLS CLUB***

So, whose been watching the Bad Girls Club??? I haven't watched since big Tenisha was on there...remember her?? Yea, that was my favorite season thus far and the one after. What happened last night??? Is it OnDemand???

My Co-worker bought me this for Christmas....cute! Right?

You can call me gullible, naive, or whatever you want. I know who I am so that doesn't bother me. However, as I get older, it is getting harder and harder for me to wholeheartedly trust people OR genuinely LIKE people. I'm genuine, blunt, honest and sometimes I can get under your skin with it but YOU WILL know what I think about you, truthfully. If I don't like you I won't interact with you. Why can't everyone be like this? Why does everyone have a hidden agenda? Why is it always about what you can do for them or how they can gain something from you for relationships (whatever kind) to be of any kind of substance? How come it seems EVERYONE has multiple personalities and you never really know them....

I'm just really finding it hard to trust people nowadays...or give people the benefit of the doubt. I don't like to keep people at an arms distance or censor myself with them as a result of their underhanded ways. I just want to be me BUT that's difficult when your friends aren't your friends, the person you love doesn't love you, someone is working full time, behind your back to sabotage you....ugh!!! It's really becoming a chore to notice the good in people before, first, noticing their faults. It's really becoming hard to value "FRIENDSHIPS" because they aren't that at all.

But one thing mommy taught me is that "when someone shows you who they really are, take that for exactly what it is, who they are" I can say that has allowed me to just move on in alot of instances. It bothers some, because they can't, for the life of them understand how I seemed so unphased and really don't care about certain things. Truth is I don't. So what, a friendship dissolves, they'll be others, so what you lose a job you're still LIVING. I always think of the more important things in life. Well, the things that are important to me anyway. I'm happy, healthy, accepted and loved by my family and have TWO very loyal, genuine, loving best friends. I've been blessed with education....none of those are things that can be taken away.
Therefore, I live for those things...not people, friends, a relationship, acceptance from everyone else, those that @ the end of the day don't matter.

I had to write this blog as a way of purging so to speak because PEOPLE can drive you crazy or @ least THINK they are. If you know me and are reading this....IF YOU DON'T LIKE ME, STAY YOUR DISTANCE. I'VE NEVER BEEN ONE TO THRIVE OFF OF FRIENDSHIP & CAN GIVE A SH!T IF YOU LIKE ME!!! I've been known to trust up front, not taking it away until I have a reason to but to hell with that....

If you like my blog then feel free to comment, follow and make sure I check yours out too. If you know me or follow me on twitter then feel free to comment on there or speak when you see me. I'm a really nice person unless given a reason to showcase another attitude...BUT FOR THE SAKE OF TIME & ENERGY KEEP YOUR SH!T MOVING IF YOUR MOTIVES & THOUGHTS AREN'T POSITIVE!!!!!

She that has a purpose....

shall fulfill it and find everlasting success!! I'm still on this whole what am I supposed to do kick and it it' bugging me more lately. As society would have it we're to go to college, graduate, land a job and work for our happiness, success and fortunes. I'm not against that but the word happy isn't in that equation. That's what I want more than anything. I want a life that I work and not the other way around. I went to college, graduated in 4years, landed the job and am quite satisfied with the amount of money I am making. Something is still missing the complete happiness in the matter. I haven't quite achieved that yet, but as of recently, I'm working on it. College graduation bought on some deep thought about life. I ask myself questions everyday like; Am I doing what i'm supposed to be doing now? Socializing with who I should be socializing with now? What does the future have for me?

There are things that are very important to me in life and while a career is one of them work isn't. I don't want my career to be a job, chore or WORK. I want to work my circumstances, life, and career. My loved ones are important to me, memories are more important to me. The idea I once had about the life I thought I wanted is still mixed in with what I want now but I realize more and more that some of those things I wanted are things that don't necessarily nurture the me inside of me. I was born, raised and still live in the Washington, DC area but this is not where I see me starting and raising a family but who knows. I wish it was easier, like if someone could just give me a plane ticket and keys to a condo on the beach in Malibu, then gave me my voice recorder, pen and paper and told me I was working at the Los Angeles Times a freelance writer, the black Carrie Bradshaw! LOL!!

LOL, it may seem funny but I kinda do still want the rewarding career of an Attorney, the idea of 3 more years of school doesn't make me cringe but I'd like to be an attorney who practiced if she wanted to. I would rather spend my days getting to know people, hearing their stories, documenting them, capturing the moments with timeless photos! I want to live life and have a career that I can thrive in while doing that!!! That's why I think that journalism may be for me. Who knows, there are lawyers in EVERY field!!

WHO KNOWS!!!!! MAYBE ONE DAY, GOD'LL SEND THE ANSWERS TO ME!!!!

New Years Resolution....2010 BOUND

2009 is ending and BELIEVE I am sad about that but blessed and happy to be embarking upon 2010. Yea, I love 2009!!! I plan to do things bigger in 2010 though. I have a strong feeling of optimism about 2010 that I haven't felt about anything else....it'll be the year my dream really take flight!!! So as I said on http://thatsfine2009.blogspot.com/ (Sunshine's blog), here are my New Years Resolution:

1. Pay off this student loan
2. TRAVEL!! TRAVEL!! TRAVEL!! (Dominican Republic in September)
3. Start building my "first condo/house" account
4. Enroll in retirement plan
5. Get back door fixed on my truck
6. Buy my new luxury barbie wheels LOL, something glam i'll buy for myself. I'm thinking
MERCEDES!!!!! I'M HOOKED!!
7. Best shape of my life for the fight in Vegas or wherever in March!!!!
8. Continue to deplete my life of as many unnecessary stress factors as possible
stress ages and causes health problems. I'm too young and my future is too promising for
that.
9. Take my LSAT classes
10. Finally pickup on some of the things I enjoyed when I was a little girl: horseback riding,
dance, pottery, reading (joining a book club), piano, women's group
11. Volunteer more in the community
12. HAVE FUN, HAVE FUN, HAVE FUN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There is this one regret....

that I have and no matter how much time passes by it still finds away to come back and haunt me with questions of what if, further ripping into my memory or bringing to realization the life that wouldve been, the person that couldve been and the pain i'll have forever as a result of the plan I destroyed.

It's not often, but every now and then, this memory resurfaces, the ample possibilities (positive & negative) resurface, and I think would it have really been THAT bad? This year is the third year, 3rd anniversary of the death of an unborn.

Life is GOD's precious gift to us and sometimes while matriculating through it's wonders, we drop the ball with no sign of what direction it'll come from. So, there it is, the one regret I'll always have.........

HUMP DAY SHOUTOUT....

CHECK OUT MY GIRL ISLANDBABY!!! I LOVE HER NEW BLOG EVEN THOUGH I LOVED THE OTHER ONE TOO!!! IT'S ENTERTAINING, WILL MAKE YOU THINK, AND YOU WILL CERTAINLY RELATE TO HER POSTS!!! This chika keeps it real!!!

Here is the link: http://www.islandbaby-thenewme.blogspot.com/

What the heck am I going to do for NYE????? Any suggestions bloggers????? My plans totally fell through and I don't have a backup....so that leads me, what are you all planning to do???

LOL, I don't wanna go to a club, go-gos are so not my steelo and most IMPORTANLY I prefer to party with the younger, more urban "hip hop" crowd LMAO!!!

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!

A Family Dynasty....

Did anyone happen to watch the Jack5ons A Family Dynasty lastnight on A&E? I did, before watching the Kardashians and it was interesting to see the brothers and get an inside look on their lives/careers or lack thereof.

So, of course they remembered Michael and shared what he meant to them as a brother and co-worker, but now they are trying to go on with the group without Michael and it's just DRAMA!! Everyone wants to be the star and it's not happening. Jackie is the more laid back cooler big brother but because of his position wants to be the boss, Tito is Joe Jr. all the way, Jermaine is a diva or divo is you will, and Marlon is very interesting with his black glasses. Randy was nowhere to be found and that could be for a number of reasons, maybe he and Jermaine aren't on speaking terms since they have kids by the same woman. It happened years ago, but i'm just sayin.....

One thing is for sure I think I know why Michael left the group....he was the star and wanted to grow, but with his brothers everyone wanted to be the star and there was no room for what Michael had coming with them. As for the rest of the family, the mother was shown, no sign of Joe and the kids are all light. I guess we see Michael wasn't the only one to like his women fair complected.

I don't know how far this show will go but I found it interesting yet hard to follow one the Kardashians premier came on @ 10.....Jermaine is handsome though. I ALWAYS wonder what Michael Jackson would have looked like as an older man has his skin never lightened and he never had the surgeries. Am I the only one?

Keeping Up....

with the Kardashians season 4 premiered last night and anyone who knows me, knows that I was watching. I really admire there big, blended family...I've always wanted alot of brothers and sisters!! Anywho, so the season started and it of course talked about Kourtney's pregnancy, Kim & Reggie, and Klomar (so lame). I cannot understand, why, for the life of me, these girls cannot keep anything private and share so much but on the other hand I can't help but to watch, they're entertaining!!!

Did anyone else watch the Kardashians last night? I admit I got a little sad when Kim was talking about Reggie because, for some reason, I relate to her situation so much!!! Anyway...........

UGH!!!

OMG I hate the winter but it gets me hype for the spring and summer!! I'm definitely breakin out the big guns lol for the upcoming warm seasons!! See, the secret is to work you ass out til you are dog tired in the winter to get that bikini/mini dress body for the spring and winter! I can't wait!!! I'm so hype, I might even have my drop top this year, especially if all works out here on the job but i'm claiming that situation!!!

I got dreams and plans for days!!! There isn't a blueprint out that illustrates this dolls stunt appeal*** I'm sorry blogfamily...I'm real high on life right now but hopefully some of these dry, smile-less people will catch contact!!!!!!

I HAVE ARRIVED BIOTCHES....LOL, HOW U DOIN???

(WENDY WILLIAM VOICE OF COURSE)

My favorite singer and My fave Saggi besides ME!!!!

It's no secret that December or the saggitarius sign is the sign of greatness!!!!! The first week of December is loaded with awesome star-studded birthdays other then my own. We all know that Jay-Z (my other favorite saggitarius) turned the BIG 40 this past Friday. Shaun Carter did it up Hov style in the Dominican Republic as a courtesy of Mrs. Beyonce Carter in a twenties themed affair. That gives me an idea for next year, I love the "Roaring Twenties" the era was so glam which totally explains the reason for Bey selecting that theme...I mean it's Shaun and Beyonce Carter! What else would they do? Anywho, they're my favorite couple so here's a "Happy Belated Birthday to Mr. Carter!!"

Don't they look fab...LOL i'm too much for myself this morning, but yes!!! LOVE THEM!!!

In my head....

I've always been a Disney Princess LOL which is why my wedding, whenever that day shall come, will be a Disney Winter Wonderland-Fairy Tale come true. So, yea...I'm 22 and very damn excited to see Disney's new movie The Princess and the Frog even though, yes, I am using my 6year old sister as reason for me to see the movie....DO NOT JUDGE ME!!!!

I went to Disney World this past summer and I remember there being a little girl, a little black girl, in the park mad because none of the Disney Princesses looked like her.

As beautiful as the princesses have always been it is about time there be an African American

Disney Princess!!!!! I'm so happy, happy and pressed to see this movie!!!!!!! I wonder if the Obama girls are going to see it????

So, I will start submitting articles to The Washington Post on whatever it is I feel like writing on. I figure that is it a modest start to see if this journalism thing is for me. I wonder if one of my submissions will ever be published in the local paper? That would be so exciting and TRUST my blog family will know about it ASAP!!!!!

So, Who's HOTTER!!!

Ok, so it's been almost a year since Chris Breezy and Rihanna's "incident" and now they both have albums, are promoting them and well, in short, back on the grind....HOWEVER, it seems to me, I COULD BE WRONG, that C.B came out of this thing on top!!!! I mean he did take his punishment like a man but he is on the NEW Vibe cover, currently touring, IDK about other cities but he was just @ D.C's Ibiza nightclub last Friday, and his new album is kinda hott....which brings me to my next question, HAS ANYONE HEARD "R" OR "RATED R" whatever his ex-girlfriend's album is called. Have you heard it? What do you think?

I just wanna know what you all think, I'm not feelin the chik, personally, ever since she did that wack ass interview RIGHT BEFORE her album was released, you know the one she did when she claimed he busted her ish all up just cause she kept asking him the same question over and over. Anywho, If you heard the album, let me know what's good with it........

With the new year coming, the bestii & I have been planning some getaways!!!! I need to have Vegas in my life early spring, I need club Dreamz and the rest of Atlanta to give me more life, late spring, and I need to act a damn fool in Miami @ Wet Willies gettin IT in with some random latin hottie and engaging in some much needed fun in the sun and upscale shopping!!! Lastly, imma need to make a pit stop somewhere abroad to expand my horizons as well....but we've yet to decide where that international location will be. I favor a luxorious spa resort on the Turks & Caicos islands myself. This year exposed the beauties of life, the peaks of happiness and the some of the unfortunate pits of sadness BUT i'm looking to top it all in 2010!!!!!!

I'm one of those girly girls that lives for lipgloss, mascara, handbags, and everything else fab but just as I can wear my pumps to the VIP spot so can I @ the hottest sporting events AND understand what's going on.....so, the bestii's and I are taking to Vegas in March for the Mayweather-Pacquiao fight!!!! While, the location of the fight hasn't been confirmed to be Las Vegas, we all know that to be the fighting mecca of the world!!! So, yea, i'm crossing my fingers for Vegas to be the spot...cause we are definitely in the building as close to the ring as we can get. I'm sparing NO ends for this trip!!! LOL, this will be one that the cheap friends will have to sit out on. Anywho....I'm so excited!! I've always wanted to go to Vegas to see a boxing match.....THIS WOULD BE A DREAM COME TRUE ON OVERLOAD***

BLOG LOVELIES....What are you looking forward to in 2010??? What is a MUST-DO for you in the upcoming year??????

I'M 22 TODAY!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!! HAPPY 22ND TO MEEEEE!!!!!
I'm so happy today is my birthday, finally 22 and I feel so blessed to see yet another birthday. Today is wonderful thus far (even though i'm @ work), the year has been great and my birthday weekend was FABULOUS!!!!!! I had a blast!!! I had a joint birthday party for my dad and I @ DC's Posh Lounge on 11th street....FAB, FAB, FAB!!! The food was on the 1 (crab cakes were CRACK), the drinks were in abundance, and the music was GREAT TOO!!! Everyone felt comfortable and keeps yellin what great time they had.

I'm 22 and have been blessed with so much more than a young mind could ask for. I thank GOD for all the blessings i've received and will receive. THANK GOD FOR LIFE!!!! Anywho, the birthday weekend was wonderful. LOL, anybody who knows me knows i'm not the GO-GO type but it was bday wkend so I let the ladies take me to the RE show....I had a good time but it was my first and LAST time having A ZOMBIE. I think I lost my tolerance, thanks to college graduation LOL.....i'm happy yall, couldn't ask for more!!!

How was everyone else's weekend.????

Sooo, idk, I think?

So, i'm @ work and the day is just beginning. The problem is i'm bored already!! I realize that I don't like to much of any ONE thing. I like for things to be switched up, to be challenged, relaxed, and most of all I love being able to express myself. So, while I was supposed to be working on a VERY significant project at work yesterday, I decided to research some grad school programs to find one that interested me. I'm a learner, a student at heart and I love to learn so lately i've been feeling like my bachelors degree isn't enough. It was never going to be my only degree and trust me, IT WON'T. My plan is to study law, obtain my J.D, take the bar and practice law somewhere, probably out on the west coast, Cali, even though their bar is one of the hardest....or so I heard! In the meantime, I want another degree, a master's degree, an interesting career focus.

Right now, I am very thankful for what I am doing now. It's a GREAT opportunity, BIGtime resume builder, and I am learning a wealth of knowledge about the financial industry's rules, regulations, and policies. I'm making great money and I have some priceless contacts....i'm just not SURE this is what is for me. Don't get me wrong, I still want to explore this field as well. I just realize that I have other interests pokin' at my brain.....WHAT DO I DO??? Do I go back to school for journalism? Write for a column to try it out? Take some non-credit journalism class? WHAT DO I DO?

GROWING UP CAN BE HARD TO DO? I'M CONFUSED!!!

He did what?????

Okay, so chik, on twitter lastnight, "outed" Pretty Ricky's Pleasure P as a child molester. Pretty Ricky and Pleasure, individually have been known for sexually explicit lyrics so I can't fake, my eyebrows did raise at the thought of this actually being true. It has been said that "Pleasure P, Marcus Cooper, was kicked out of the group Pretty Ricky for hiding that he was a child molester, and his people hired her dad (the dad of the chik on twitter) to help cover it up, save his image, so he could get a record deal. WOW!! DAMN!!! is all I could say. These are pretty serious allegations to drag someone's name through and for the sake of his reputation, career I pray they are actually true. Noone would believe they are false if he says they are. How'd he come back from that. This is serious stuff. HOWEVER, supposedly the girl's dad who was again, hired by Pleasure P's people to "keep" his career and image so to speak, hasn't been being paid regularly and so NOW she saw fit to take to twitter and do damage.

What's done in the dark will ALWAYS come to the light. For the sake of everyone's lives I hope the truth is exposed soon.

Iconic**

"I'm selfish, impatient, and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control, and at times hard to handle, but if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best."

~Marilyn Monroe

I couldn't have said it any better then the beautiful, late Ms.Monroe*** You love me? Like me? Care about me? Are my REAL friend? THEN PROVE IT!!!!

HOLIDAY FIT TIP***

HEY HEY blog family!!!! It's the holiday season and it is especially hard to stay sexified and fit this time of year. However, i've noticed within the past few days I myself feel a little chunkier SO operation SEXY PRESERVATION is in full swing!!!!

Follow these tips to preserve your sexy this holiday season:
1. Have some of everything BUT have tablespoonfuls of everything. You can still eat everything
just be sure to CONTROL YOUR PORTIONS!!!
2. STEP AWAY FROM THE ALCOHOL!!! Alcoholic beverages are loaded with empty calories
sugars. Wash your dinner down with water instead!!!!
3. EAT SLOW!!! This always help!!! Alot of time we inhale the food without actually enjoying it,
share a place, have a conversation and EAT SLOW!!!!
4. Holiday season doesn't mean NO EXERCISE!!! Get & Stay moving....holiday shopping can help
the walking but opt for post dinner crunches instead of dessert or an appetizer.

EVERYTHING IN MODERATION EXCEPT EXERCISE****

Tis the Season to be JOLLY!!!

I love this time of the year!!! Its family/loved one gathering time, the smell of mint & pine are in the air, rich dark colors and lights are abound!!!! Not to mention my 22nd birthday is next Monday the 7th!!!!! Anywho, how did everyone's Thanksgiving go? Mine was wonderful, but more quiet than normal this year. I did go see one of my Alma Mater's play in DC's Turkey Bowl though (yea imma proud Ballou Knight). I shopped this weekend and finally saw Precious (fought back tears the whole time).

What are everyone's holiday plans?? Traveling? Did you start shopping yet? Be Merry blogfamily and savor the moments!!!!

OH everybody in the DC area should check out the ICE @ Gaylord National this holiday season. I had so much fun with my mom and sister when we went. Be sure to bundle up though! To find out more about this event GOOGLE Christmas on the Potomac.

Anywho, whats good for the holidays??!?!?!? LET ME IN!!!

F up MUCH!!!!

OK so is anyone as t'd off as I am that White House State Dinner/Party Crashers STILL have not been criminally charged???? What is the hold up??? How did this even happen?? President Obama needs to start a firing line STARTING with the Secret Service and the White House Social Secretary!!! Replace ALL OF THEM!!! How did the fiasco even get that far??? I'm not gonna play the race card as far as the crashers go BUT COME ON, this ish would not have happened to any previous NON-SWAG President!!!! We know this!! Those people just completely duped the system. I imagine it was an F* up of this nature that enabled the 9/11 attacks to occur and involve 4 planes and 3 buildings!!!!! The life of the President, his daughters, the First Lady and all the other dignitaries' lives were endangered by the Jack*** that allowed this to happen......ugh!!!!!!

Did GaGa not work this look???

I'm beginning to love GaGa!!!!!

The Real Barbie & 5* Chik!!!

SAY WHAT YOU WANT ABOUT TRINA, SHE'S THE REAL BARBIE AND 5 STAR CHIK!!!!!!!! LOVE HER TWITTER PIC SO, YES I HAD TO STEAL IT FOR MY BLOG!!!!!

Tall, Black, Handsome...Only Athletes Need Apply?**

So, I'm @ work, it's two days before Thanksgiving and you're crazy if you think i'm actually doing some work....PLEASE!!! That's what NEXT Monday is for. However, as I cruised the net, my gossipy, all in the celebs business side took control and that's when I found that Khadijah Haqq half of the twin duo from ATL is dating New Orleans Saints Bobby McCray. DAMN!!! These chiks don't play do they!!! They really do not get down with no broke N****Z!!!! Ladies I refuse to hate but with Sunshine's daily Afternoon Delight, imma just ask HOW CAN I BE DOWN??? If anybody stays up on celebrity juice like me, well Kardashian juice anyway, then you know that Khadijah and twin sister Malika are Best Friends with the Kardashian sisters (Yep, Lomar Odom and Reggie Bush's Kardashian sisters.) SO, LIKE I SAID, HOW CAN I BE DOWN??? I mean i'm not picky it can be NBA or NFL; Devin Thomas, Dwight Howard, Derrick Rose.....i'm not golddigger though, i'm just doing whatever it is their doing. It's clear these chiks like a certain type of dude....question is, How come when its an ordinary chik, who will likely never meet these guys, they're called golddiggers????

HELLO OUT THERE!!!

I have been MIA on the blogging front!! I still want to know whats going on with my blog bunnies though. What's going on everybody??? Did anyone see the J.Lo fall lastnight. I watched only for Janet's performance and of course I caught Jay and A. Keys but not the fall. I feel bad for J.Lo cause this is her first performance in awhile....anywho, it happens to the best of them, Queen Bey has even taken a downer or two in her time. What did everyone think of Janet's performance. Can you believe she is 43 years old and HAS NEVER LOST IT??? Gotta love Ms. Jackson!!!

My dream concert is Mariah, Bey Carter, and Janet.....hopefully God will give me that one day. I'm @ work rambling because I should be working, hence the reason i've barely blogged. I have some things on my mind though, so I won't be gone for long. Meanwhile, what's been up with yall? Sunshine where you at? Khaki?? Wsup chiks???? Keep me up and I still didn't get those twitter requests/follows. We need to get that together!!!! Love you dolls!!! ***KISSES** TIL NEXT TIME.
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Oh, I had to change my birthday plans....any suggestions on what I can do now???

40/40, Tropicana, Trump Plaza, Caesars

I am at work so beyond tired it doesn't make any sense. This weekend was loooong!!! I had fun though, it was all well deserved! To start off the Girl Gone Crazy weekend my best friend and her other bestii went to my bestii's house for Champagne, birthday cake, food, and girl talk....a pajama party between the 3 of us so to speak. Mind you, this was after work Friday night, I'm already tired*

Saturday, myself, my bff, another friend, and my bff's cousin hit up The Tender Rib (a new spot owned in Temple Hills) and got some soul food. If you're in the DC area, you must try their food. So far i've had the ribs, greens, yams, fried chicken, fried fish, BBQ Chicken, potatoe salad, and mac & cheese....NOTHING WAS LESS THAN TASTY!!!!! It's owned by a friend's family and was a real treat. After gettin' our food we drove to Atlantic City. OMG, I'm so tired @ this point but doing all the driving. I woke up once we arrived to AC though. Tropicana was poppin, but Trump Plaza was our first stop. We had a ball, taking pictures in front of Caesars, fight @ 40/40, ate @ P.F Chang, Gambled it up @ Tropicana for the rest of the night, and the Malibu & Pineapple I had kept right. I had so much necessary fun with my girls. We arrived home @ about 7:30 Sunday morning.

I got some sleep then did some light shopping with the bff and LOL and then back to the Tender Rib to pickup our Sunday dinner & wine. This has been THE PERFECT year!!!! I have to have fun havin' it up to send it off. NEW YEARS PLANS ARE DEFINITELY IN THE WORKS!!!!!

What did you all do this weekend? Any special holiday plans in the works?

Til Death Do Us Part? or NO??

OMG!!! Divorce is running amuch, as usual, in "the industry", with rumors that I am SURE ARE FALSE circulating that my favorite couple JayZ and Beyonce are cheating on each other, I took to my favorite sources to learn more about "the industry's" couple woes. SO, it's no surprise to many that Antonia "Toya" Carter and her boo James from the show Tiny and Toya, are no longer together. Toya is busy being the model ex-wife/baby momma toward her daughter with Wayne and the rest of his gang of babymovas (Ohio chik, Nivea, Lauren London).

Also, back in the news for marital problems/divorce is Shaq and wife Shaunie O'neal. Shaq just got served yall with THE PAPERS. Reportedly, Shaq has been gettin it in with Shaunie's BFF, and she's had enough. Shaunie has moved from Florida back to L.A. She has even transferred the kids to school in L.A. This might be it for those two, mean this is their second bout with THE PAPERS!!!

Anywho, it's final!!!! We can likely expect another killer confessions type album from Mr. Usher Raymond. Usher's divorce from the supposedly crazy Tameka Raymond IS FINAL!!!! This isn't a surprise to anyone though because Usher's song about his marital woes/pending divorce "THE PAPERS" been blowing up airwaves. I really like that song. I've never been married but certainly feel his exhaustion.

MEANWHILE....I'M PRAYING IT'S ALL GOOD WITH JAYONCE!!!! I LOVE THEM** They have to beat the stereotype**

DEATH begets DEATH

So yesterday the DC Sniper was put to death by injection. Naturally when something of that nature happens, the media reflected on that scary time in the DC area. It forced me to reflect. I was 14 getting ready to turn 15 and remember being scared like everyone else in the area. I caught the metro bus to school, sometimes walked to school and again like everyone else, learned to be weary of all white trucks and vans, the color and type of vehicle said to be that of the perpetrator's. We were all bamboozled!!! What is stereotyically the type of crime committed by a middle-aged white man was carried out by 2 Black men......WHAT??!?!? That was what I and the people I knew thought. Once more, my mom was pregnant, there were woods all around my brother's school and I lived and attended school right off major highways. Not knowing when the sniper would strike next, everybody in the DMV was on edge; it seems funny now but if you truly were a washingtonian either inside or just on the outskirts of DC, then you remember stooping down to pump gas, walking in a zigzag pattern, standing behind trees, stooping down in your vehicle @ stop lights, or not wanting to park in public parking garages, school field trips, outside/sports events were cancelled. I actually was more scared during and after the sniper attacks then I was after the 9-11 attacks!!! This was a local evil, happening right in our own backyards, invading our privacy, stripping away our security, confidence, threatening the children, and imposing death on even the most innocent. What's worst?? The NONexplanation or sense of remorse offered by the mastermind of the shootings.

Ten people lost their lives, an innocent child was shot & injured, and an entire region's lively-ness was killed for nothing, as a result of evil. I've seen the movie (3 weeks in October) and still I don't remember it being only 3 weeks, it felt like months!!!!! It's certainly time I couldn't wait to pass, and I remember the night that I woke up in the middle of the night to CNN being on my tv with headlines saying "Breaking News: DC Sniper Caught @ Truck Rest Stop." I ran upstairs from my basement bedroom to tell my parents and we all finally, for the first time in 3 weeks, breathed a sigh of relief yet strength like true Washingtonians. He was caught, the evil that taunted us all for 3 whole weeks was in police custody and the beginning to his end began.

However, seven years later he was executed and the day after, I don't feel good about his death either. I'm not quite sure why I feel the way I feel. Maybe it's because just like those people he killed didn't have to be killed, he didn't have to be either. I don't know what i'd offer as an alternate outcome but his death made me feel even sadder about the situation, BUT i'm glad the loved ones of his victim saw some sort of closure or restitution.

One thing is for sure, I remember the way I felt during those 3 weeks in October. Do any of my DMV bloggers remember that time? How did you feel? How do you feel about the execution? Chime in............

Girls Just Wanna Have FUN**

I had a crazy amount of fun lastnight with my girlies. It was my bff's 22nd birthday (YaY!!) we went to The Melting Pot to celebrate. It was the perfect night to go because it was their monthly Girls Night Out night and OMG!!!! It was the best dining out experience i've had. For those that don't know, The Melting Pot is a Fondue Restaurant where fondues are made at your table and you are given "dippers" (food to dip in the fondue & eat). They had a separate Girls Night Out menu which included a four course meal. It was sooo good. The first course was a cheese fondue with assorted dippers that included apples, vegetables, bread, nacho chips. The second course was the salad. 3rd was the entree THAT YOU COOK YOURSELF!!! I'll admit I was the only one skeptical about us cooking it ourselves BUT everything is preseasoned and marinated & the server gives you instructions to guide you through the cooking.
It sounds like alot of work but it isn't...IT'S FUN!!! The food was so good, the entree was steak, chicken breast, shrimp, pasta, with vegetables. ALL OF IT IS COOKED BY YOU!!!

BUT OMG THE LAST COURSE was the BEST...the dessert comes with a chocolate fondue that you choose with an assortment of dippers: pound cake, cheesecake, strawberries, bananas, brownies, marshmellows. We chose the Flaming Turtle Chocolate Fondue that came with walnuts in regular chocolate fondue that was flambeed @ our table. It was soo good!!! I recommend this restaurant as a nice date restaurant!!!! I don't have pics for blogger but the night was amazing!!

My best friend LOVED her gifts!! I got her a Betsey Johnson bag & Cosmetic Bag, 3 Vicky Secrets Lipglosses, Vicky's perfume giftpack with all the Vicky's perfumes, two bottles of Rose` Champagne (MOET), a birthday cake and dinner was on me!!!!

While we ALL had a good time last night, let this post remind you to be selfless and try to take yourself out of the equation sometimes. You'll be surprised @ how going out of your way to make someone else happy can make you feel*** Checkout The Melting Pot too!!!!

AYE BESTII GOT A BDAY!!!

I am so happy my bestii's birthday is tomorrow, we're embracin the double deuces*** She's the first!!!!

So yea, I broke up the work day with some shopping for her gifts; Betsey Johnson and Vicky Secrets, i'm off to get the Bottle of Moet Rose' Imperial after work!!! I love my best friend, she's been a constant force of strength, love and support in my life since we were 11years old!!! I get amped when this day comes like it's my birthday!!! I CAN'T WAIT TO DO IT WAY BIG FOR MY LOVE'S 22ND BIRTHDAY!!!!!

GREAT, LOYAL, AUTHENTIC friends are like a needle in a haystack and almost impossible to come across. I was blessed to meet mine in my sixth grade reading class***

IT'S A CELEBRATION B*****$!!!!!!!!!!!!

SHOUT OUT....

TO MY GIRL SUNSHINE110....I LOVE HER BLOG!!!

SHE IS DOIN' IT THIS MONTH WITH THE

DEDICATION TO THE NFL KEEP THE POST COMIN' GIRLIE***

I'M READIN' & I'M LUSTIN LOL I MEANT LIKIN....

CHECKOUT HER BLOG @

http://thatsfine2009.blogspot.com/

OMG!!! RIHANNA, SHUTUP!!!

Ok so she was beat by Chris Brown in February after the grammys and supposedly this was something that happened before BUT I could care less now, 9 MONTHS LATER, about what she has to say about it!!!!! I mean is she serious???

1.) She is seriously gonna start her promo tour for the new album talking about that incident??

2.) People are really gonna give her credit for talking about this NOW???

3.) If it was so wrong for her to go back to him after the incident, then why wait this long to confront the situation that she feared other girls would fall VICTIM to????

People PLEASE SEE THROUGH THIS B.S!!!!!! She has waited damn near a year to play the victim or role model in a situation that was nothing less than serious to promote her album. Who know, Chris' motivation may have been the same but she has been partyin, recording, performing, traveling like it wasn't nothing but NOW, now that her album is hittin' stores she is again Chris Brown's romantic, battered victim. I don't fault the chik for moving on with life BUT don't pull this whole "I gotta live by example B.S" when record sales are in the occasion.

This chik gets NO LOVE, NO SYMPATHY, NOTHING!!!! SHE'S KRAZY!!! She should have been the example MONTHS AGO** & WTF?? IS UP WITH HER FASHION GAME LATELY, RIRI IS TRYING WAY HARD LATELY!!!!

OK!!! So, Nas and Kelis are still going back and forth about noneother than $$$$$$$$$$$

Supposedly Kelis has been ordered about $72,500 a month in spousal support, NOT TO MENTION the $50k she gets a month in child support. HOWEVER, NAS has filed papers demanding that, that order be blocked and that Kelis doesn't see the money. Reportedly, his main concern is the baby and that the baby is taken care of, NOT continuing to support Kelis post marriage.......

$72K A MONTH????????? IF SHE CAN GET IT, I'M NOT MAD @ HER!!!!! WHOA!!

LAUGH OF THE DAY: RUPAUL A HOT, KRAZII MESS**

MY 48!!!!

GOT THIS FROM SUNSHINE110.....HAD TO STEAL IT BECAUSE I LOVE HER BLOG**

What time did you get up this morning? Rose and was ready to grind @ 7am

2. How do you like your steak? WELL DONE....COOKED**

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema? Michael Jackson THIS IS IT

4. What is your favorite TV show? The Game, Real Housewives
5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be? Penthouse Apt. in NY

6.What did you have for breakfast? Crunch Bar

7.What is your favorite cuisine? Italian & American (love pasta, pizza, and burgers)

8.What foods do you dislike? Liver, Squash, Veal, Zucchini
9. Favorite place to eat? Cheesecake Factory
10. Favorite dressing? Italian, Caesar

11. What kind of vehicle do you drive? Mercedes ML430

12. What are your favorite clothes? My mans clothes, THE ULTIMATE RELAXTION

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance? South of France (St. Tropez), Africa (Capetown)
14. Cup 1/2 empty or 1/2 full? 1/2 full, optimism is LIFE

15. Where would you want to retire? Someplace with my hunni cozy, beautiful scenery and not far from the beach.
16. Favorite time of day? Midday when the sun is setting and the night is settling...beautiful @ that time
17. Where were you born? DC BABY!!!

18. What is your favorite sport to watch? Basketball!! I like'em tall, muscular/lean and athletic
19. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? Not sure, Stacey
20. Bird watcher? NOOOO
21. Are you a morning person or a night person? NIGHT

22. Do you have any pets? NOPE
23. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? I'm the unforgettable, he's stuck and SPRUNG

24. What did you want to be when you were little? LAWYER, takin the LSAT in February
25. What is your best childhood memory? Having fun with my daddy
26. Are you a cat or dog person? Puppies

27. Are you married? NOT YET

28. Always wear your seat belt? Yes indeed
29. Been in a car accident? NO
30. Any pet peeves? Too many, some are petty i'll admit

31. Favorite Pizza Toppings? Pepperoni, Sausage, Green Peppers
32. Favorite Flower? Pink Rose
33. Favorite ice cream? Butter Pecan, Cake Batter
34. Favorite fast food restaurant? Checkers, Chik Fil-A

35. How many times did you fail your driver's test? ONCE

36. From whom did you get your last email? MOM

37. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Neimans

38. Do anything spontaneous lately? Not really, i'm slippin
39. Like your job? YES
40. Broccoli? with butter, salt & pepper

41. What was your favorite vacation? Always Disney
42. Last person you went out to dinner with? My besty Janay!!!

43. What are you listening to right now? Xscape
44. What is your favorite color? PINK
46. How many are you tagging for this quiz? NONE

47. What time did you finish this quiz? 11:09AM
48. Coffee drinker? SOMETIMES, I prefer latte

HALLOWEEN!!!!! HOW WAS YOURS???

My Halloween was sooo uber FUN!!!! It started Friday with a trip to Field of Screams. Its a place Maryland where an entire field was turned into 4 different kinds of haunted attractions!!! So fun and in my opininion sort of beat out Six Flags or Kings Dominion. There was a haunted hayride, haunted trail, Spooky Corn Maze and a VERY haunted house!!!!! The weather added to the "ambiance" too, it was cold, misty and dark! In the middle of the field, were open fires to roast smores, eat fair food like funnel cakes, popcorn, hot cocoa, pizza, hot dogs, etc....

THE NEXT DAY....HALLOWEEN, I went to the movies to see the much anticipated Michael Jackson movie THIS IS IT!!!!! I LOVED THE FILM!! MJ was such a gentle soul, he seemed to nice...I really wish he could've lived a longer, happier life**

HALLOWEEN NIGHT: I and some college friends got dressed up & went to the costume party @ The Park in DC and I had a BLAST, LOVED the mixed crowd and The Park has the HOTTEST BOUNCERS IN THE CITY!!!!!! Halloween was a very eventful night yet funny, fun and champagne filled!!!!!!!!!

I WAS A BRIDE FOR HALLOWEEN? WHAT WERE YOU? WHAT'D YOU DO???

Happy Halloween!!!

Happy Halloween bloggers!! I'm on my way out & typing this
On my Blackberry, SO AWESOME!!! Hope you're having fun & being safe tonight...SMOOCHES*

LAQUERED!!!!

I love nail art and innovation!!! I stilll haven't tried the minx due to bad reviews by nail techs and customers but I recently have found my new home for glueing, lacquering and acrylic overlaying!!! The best part is the young lady who did my nails is Black. NOOOOO, I don't have anything against any other race of people but I like supporting people within my community!!! She did her thing bloggers, right off the top of her head and the colors are so RIGHT* SO ME** SO PRETTY. I lOVE to put raw talent on the spot so please if you're in the DC area, checkout Robyn @ Salon Couture in Forestville, MD!!!!

So I gotta a Blackberry....

I "lost" my phone the other day while in the midst of mayhem after the JayZ concert in B-More and couldn't deal with being excommunicated from the world so I finally upped my game & ordered a Blackberry. I ordered the Blackberry Tour 9630 from Sprint....I'm used to touchscreen so i'm a little restless with the lack thereof on the Blackberry but am anxious to see what has Blackberry owners so addicted, you know the untimely addiction of the "Crackberry!"

Why is it called the Crackberry??

I mean I think my other phone was quite efficient when it wasn't freezing and doing what the hell it wanted to....The Camera on this phone is SICK!!!!

DAMN straight I had to find this shoe in PINK. This would have been HOTT for Breast Cancer Awareness Month.....I wonder if I can find it to buy for my birthday. I love the simple elegance of this shoe!!!! So glad Louboutin is the new official shoe for Sex in the City!!!!!!!!!!!

LOVE IT....IT'S SO ME********

Song I can't get out of my head.....

Chrisette's "NOTEBOOK"

I love that song, it is so relevant to the events and lack of events taking place in my life right now. I'm late getting her album "Epiphany" but, in college, the last album "I AM" was like therapy!!!

"I'm feelin you, you feelin meBut still we can't be togetherI got a feelin'You got these same feelinsToo bad we can't feel 'em togetherI sit on my bed and wonderHow it'd be if you were mineI think of you like no otherHere's what I do every night..."

EXACTLY HOW I FEEL!!! Could not have found a better way to say it myself!!! It's funny how art truly does imitate life and at times when we haven't a clue how to sum up, in words, what's going on in life. I love this song. He is soo far....but IN MY NOTEBOOK LOL***

BOOOOOO!!!!!!

I just ordered my Halloween costume from the 3wishes website!!!! I haven't dressed up for Halloween in years BUT this year is different, I'm pressed too!!! The Christian in me refuses to be anything evil so i've chosen to be a virgin bride, with a HUGE DIAMOND!!! Halloween will be extra fun this year so I figure why not participate? Are any of you celebrating Halloween? Gonna give out candy??? What are your plans? What are u going to be?

JayZ concert today, So Excited!!! He is so FLYY!!

MY FACIAL EXPRESSION SAYS IT ALL!!!

I realize my bloggers haven't a clue what I look like well here you go a face to go with the words....My facial expression says it all, I'm dancing in an abundance of HAPPINESS & PEACE!!! HAVE A GOOD DAY BLOGGERS....WORK HARD TO STAY HAPPY***

APPRECIATION

IT'S IMPORTANT THAT WE FOCUS ON WHAT IS AND NOT WHAT COULD HAVE, SHOULD HAVE, WOULD HAVE....LOVE EVERYDAY YOU WAKE UP AND APPRECIATE EVERYTHING!!!!!!

Terrell Owens, Dwight Howard, JayZ & LANCE**

OK so my range of celebrity crushes range from the likes of the RIPPED Terrell Owens, Ball player Dwight Howard, the street smart corporation that is JayZ and NOW @ the top of the list Lance Gross!! Eva has got a gem on her arm. I like them on the darker side medium brown skin to dark BUT for some reason I only attract lightskin guys!! I only remember one of my exes being brown skin. I have always thought Lance was handsome and he is the ONLY reason I watch that Tyler Perry tv show but DAMN, my jaw dropped when I saw his new pics; definitely had me thinking some things and feeling some type of way.
LADIES LANCE IS DEFINITELY SOMETHING TO LOOK OUT FOR ALTHOUGH HE'S OFF LIMITS:

Contagious Peace....

I have ranted on and on about great of a year I was having. I realize that not everyone can attest to 2009 being such a good year for them BUT what I do realize is, that all of us can do our part to be infectious at enabling someone else to end the year happily, at peace and smiling. Moods, attitudes, personalities or the lack thereof can be contagious/infectious just like the common cold, swine flu or anything else and kill anything positive that is about to, can or should happen involving us. It is important to start every day with the intention to do positive things, think positively, surround oneself with positive personalities that exude love and care for us. Even after a not so unfortunate (argument, fight, let down, bad news) event.

CALM DOWN & FOCUS ON THE MANY THINGS THAT DID NOT GO WRONG, COULD GO WRONG** Be thankful for the blessings that have been bestowed upon yourself and realize that your situation can ALWAYS be worst. So live happily!!!! Do the things you love with the people you love, GET RID OF NEGATIVE CATALYST (they mean NO good) and ALWAYS, ALWAYS be optimistic and thankful for the GOOD things**

If nothing else, be thankful for LIFE!!! Work hard to keep your personal peace still**

Kardashian Sisters to Design for Bebe

So per Kim Kardashian's twitter posts today she and her sisters are now designing for the female clothing chain Bebe!!! IS THERE ANYTHING THESE GIRLS DON'T DO?!?!? Anywho Kim tweeted

"Creative meeting at BeBe right now! Me, Khloe & Kourtney are designing for BeBe now! I love their clothes! Wait for our stuff!"

I am not mad at the Kardashian sisters those girls are some real business forces to reckoned with!!! I LIKE BeBe too, hopefully their line can get me to LOVE BeBe** They seem to have great style and know what consumers are looking for Kim started out as a celebrity stylist with, among her clients Brandy (enter RayJ, Video cam and Kinky porn music) and the sister with their mom own 3 clothing boutiques....GET IT DOLLS, MAKE THAT MONEY**

LET THE KARDASHIAN SISTERS REMIND YOU TO BE ON YOUR DAILY GRIND....MAKE MOVES DOLLS, **KISSES**